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Ask yourself this question, what direction am I headed? What’s your answer?
Directions: Work, School, Family, Children, Friends, Spiritual, Spouse, Life
John Lajba "Compassionate Christ" Servants of Mary Motherhouse Omaha
God has been such a directional force for me over the years. Many times I was unwilling to allow Him in to direct me. True, God will never push us or trespass on our free will. I believe He will however put people in our lives that help us along the way. Early on in my career as an adult, I didn’t go through the I don’t have to go to Church phase. I went and I believed. However, what I never really understood is how to have a personal relationship with God.
Now, being a deacons wife I hope to have a relationship with God. And all relationships take time. During Advent this past year, I wrote on our refrigerator wipe-off board
“To grow any relationship you must spend time with the person you want to be closer to. Our heavenly father wants to be close to us. Pray every day!”
The direction my life is taking has been a process, a journey. For me the only way to really appreciate it is to look reflectively back at the last time I had a bad mood that I couldn’t get out of. What? That doesn’t make any sense. Sure it does, think about how long ago it was that you were in a mood that could have peeled paint off your car with one glance. Now how many days, weeks, months ago was that? For me about 2 weeks. The mood only lasted about 30 minutes, and I haven’t thought about the mood since. This revelation didn’t happen over night. I made the conscience decision to pray everyday and grow my relationship with God. But how does this affect your mood? By reminding me that I am not in control of the situation. Let me repeat that. I am not in control of the situation. Who is then? God! God is. He is in control and Mary (Our blessed mother) is in the details.
What a relief…to know that I don’t have to be in charge. Even though the human side of me still has the tendency to want to control the situation the relationship keeps me centered and reminds me that I am not.
But what about your other relationships, like with your husband, don’t they center you? Good question. Yes, he does center me and I spend time growing that relationship too. However, when I think of what all our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has done for us it so humbling that I want to thank Him everyday for the enormous blessings He has given me, especially my husband. Drawing close to God like a deer to water, lowers my stress level and keeps me coming back for more of His graces.
Daily prayer is a HUGE part of my life, and so is a Spiritual Direction. Spiritual direction is a great source of clarity for me. A director is there to walk with you on your journey. Guiding you through your, often times, emotionally driven angst back to God through prayer. If you don’t pray there is nothing to direct. I started slowly, 5 – 10 minutes per day to get up to 30 minutes I do now. Sure, not every day do I sit down and actually pray for 30 minutes at a stretch, but I take God with me through out my day and He is never too far from my current thought.
I don’t know what direction to take in prayer? List your blessings and you’ve found a place to start.
When my creative whims take me on a new journey, it’s easy to forget the things you enjoy.
Stepping back into the blog, I am reminded that this writing format is a place to create.
Recently, I’ve spent several nights tossing and turning. My mind spinning with ideas and projects; it’s trilling and exhausting all at the same time. Everything from how to redecorate my living room and bed room; to moving my office to the basement; even what to plant in my garden.
One of these major thrills has been looking for places to use my energy. Which has given rise to starting my own administrative assisting business. This part-time adventure is born on the idea of “multiple streams of income”. http://sites.google.com/site/adminoncall4you/
With this adventure I noticed something very interesting. I’m not nauseous about the prospect of talking to people about my business. This is something that plagued me in my network marketing businesses. Although the product is OUTSTANDING there was always a sense that it was a sham. Believing in my product and myself were never the problems. It was the reaction of other people. The freeing feeling I have with Admin On Call is that this is all me. My idea, my creation, my skills. Albeit God-given, I don’t have a manual I have to memorize, products to conquer people to convince. Sure there are aspects of both that are the same, the difference? me. My outlook of consulting, not only my husband, also God has given me the opportunity for purpose.
The greatest gift of allowing God to run your life, is how He brings people into (even back into) your life for a certain purpose. Reconnecting with friends and former co-workers has been an incredible blessing. Catching up on my blog is something that also grounds me in sticking to something I start.
